(Original Song by BIZZYNICCI)
Lyrics
I learned how to breathe without making a sound
Counted the cracks in the ceiling, memorized the ground
Kept my pulse low, kept my hands clean
Learned how to disappear in between
You spoke in questions sharp enough to bruise
I answered carefully, choosing what to lose
I folded my edges, softened my name
Learned which parts of me you couldn’t contain
You thought my silence was asking for grace
But I was just standing still, watching your face
Waiting for the moment the noise burned out
Waiting to hear what was left without doubt
I didn’t break
I just bent where you couldn’t see
Held my spine straight in the dark quietly
I stayed upright while you searched for proof
Don’t confuse the calm in my chest
With losing you
I mapped every exit like a second skin
Slept with the lights on, let the doubt creep in
Smiled like a habit, braced for the fall
Learned how to look untouched at all
You fed me your fear, I wore it thin
Let it carve its lines underneath my skin
I bled in the margins, stitched myself whole
Called it survival, called it control
You needed me smaller
You needed me wrong
I was learning the shape of moving on
I didn’t break
I just slipped out of view
Held my ground while you needed a wound
I’m still standing quiet, steady, sure
I was never something you could secure
If survival feels cold when you hear it out loud
It’s because no one was there when I figured it out
I learned how to live without witnesses
Learned how to exist without evidence
I don’t need forgiveness
I don’t need release
I already crossed the line you couldn’t reach
I didn’t break
I don’t owe you truth
I stayed intact while you chased the proof
Still standing quiet, still standing clear
I didn’t disappear
I stayed.