(Original Song by BIZZYNICCI)
Lyrics
I stopped explaining myself
Mid-sentence
Mid-breath
Mid-hope
I realized you weren’t confused
You just liked me trying
You watched me soften
Like it was progress
Like erosion meant growth
Every time I gave you clarity
You asked for more
You don’t miss me
You miss access
You miss knowing where I was
You miss the version of me
That answered when you called
I learned how to pause
Long enough
For the truth to show itself
Funny how silence
Will tell you everything
People won’t
You kept saying “be patient”
Like waiting was neutral
Like time doesn’t take sides
I waited
And watched
And remembered
I don’t need distance
I need removal
I need your voice
Out of my head
I need my name
Back in my mouth
The way it sounded
Before you said it
You confuse familiarity
With safety
You confuse comfort
With care
I was never calm around you
I was careful
There’s a difference
Between staying
And being held
I stayed
I wasn’t held
I don’t replay us
I replay myself
The moment I stopped shrinking
The moment you noticed
And said nothing
If you think I vanished
You’re wrong
I just stopped reaching
Where I wasn’t met
I didn’t leave angry
I left exact
I left with everything
I came with
And that’s the part
You hate
I’m not distant
I’m done listening
I’m not cold
I’m intact
You don’t get a final word
You already had too many